This song is about the desperation to be with someone who’s gone. It expresses the feelings of hopelessness and loss of control that grief brings and mindlessly pining after moments you will never get to have with them, feeling the burn of painful distance. I didn’t fully realize what this song was about for a while, although I felt it very deeply every time I played it. It was when the album was half way finished, and I had a conversation with someone about grief covering your entire life, past, present and future, when I came to realize its meaning. You go through years and years without someone. You grow and change. Your life shifts and turns. You look back at your time with them and realize how completely different life is now. There’s nothing more you want than to not have to grow anymore without them and to catch them up on everything you’ve missed out on- to talk in circles.